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People-builder

{ March 17, 2009 @ 1:59 am } · { family, spiritual walk }
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There’s a price tag for being a people-builder: It requires unselfishness. why? cos it takes time, efforts, hardwork, discipline, tearssssss, faith and many many more but the main lead is not you. it’s the people you build and God!

so why build people? i dun really gain much hahahx considering how much i have to put in but whenever i imagine the impact it could have if i commit myself to being a people-builder, there’s only a word to describe-WOW!

imagine this: if i build 3 ppl and these 3 ppl build another 3 ppl each, and they build another 3 each…..and it continues, imagine how many ppl can be saved, imagine how many ppl can come and worship God and glorify God. the multiplier effect! i’m really very convicted dat this is the fastest way to help the KOG grow. And the amazing thing is dat you never noe if one of dem is gonna be a great church planter next time! hah!

so i asked God who do i build? where do i start? haha i was stupid enough to ask these questions when there’s a tpj cg in front of me! figuratively and literally cos once i asked God and i just looked straight, i see the tpj cg photo in front of me hahahx!

Amanda, Stephanie, Si Qin, Si Qi, Pui Wah, Ying Ying,  Swee Hong, Jaslyn(the tpj j1 at tertiary), Bryan, Melvin, Chicky, Wei En, Jermyn, Vincent, Jun Xian

and of cos Michelle Loo and Joyce!

To help people to grow and to become what God made them to be. haha i wanna be a people builder!!!!!! =)

anyway something random…..

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hahax something my mum made. it’s mochi mouse! hahahahx super cute rite! it’s red bean paste filling hahahx! i shall make some for my cg and shepherd hahahhahahahahahahhaha!!!!!!!!!!!

results……

{ March 7, 2009 @ 2:13 am } · { family, life, spiritual walk }
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well didn’t do as well as i expected. and to be truthful, i was dissapointed, especially when i think of how my family would react i seriously wanted to run away. i cried, stopped, think about how to call home and break the news, i cried agian and the cycle repeats… but it’s through this incident that God opened my eyes to more things and i really wanna thank God.

i was so afraid to go home cos i duno how to face my mum. i literally dragged myself home. a 5 mins walk home from mrt and i took like 15 mins. i opened the door and my mum was sitting at the living room. she didn’t even look at me. i nearly burst out crying again. i sat beside her and then it was so awkward dat i had to say something. den i told her” mummy i noe wat are the few courses dat i wanna take le lehx” and den for the next 10 mins it was all me who was talking. talking abt how badly my school did compared to others, how i was feeling right den and den i ran out of things to say. and she said” watever you choose just do it. 行行出状元, who noes you might be one of dem. ” i stunned hahax. den she said” even if you have to go courses which are not popular it’s okay cos next time lesser ppl compete with you also.” the whole entire atmosphere changed. totally changed. i was so so so so happy. if i had gotten good grades i guess all these words will never come out from her mouth. it would just be ” oh okay lorx”. there wouldn’t be comforting words nor approval. it would just be another expected results. so i really wanna thank God for it.

oh another thing is dat if i had good results den i probably duno where to go. i probably will end up in some lab doing research or analysing stuffs which i dun really like. so with my results i’ll choose courses which are more interactive, more relational which is wat i wanted to do!so actually God has decided everything for me!

God,

thanks for the assurance during the pm dat you will hold my hands and receive the results with me.

thanks for really being there when i get my results

thanks for the wonderful cg who came and support, who came and comfort, who came and encourage who were just there. it made a lot of difference.

thanks for helping me get over the down feeling so quickly dat even i’m amazed. tot it would have lasted longer.

thanks for the memorable talk with my mum. short but really really good.

thanks for showing me and guiding me to where you wan me to go.

overall, this is really a emotional day but i’m glad i went through it with God and at the end of the day, i am just left to be amaze at how God plans things so wonderfully. Thanks so much God!=)

How do you read ur bible?

{ March 4, 2009 @ 10:14 pm } · { Learnings, spiritual walk }
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“read whatever chapter of Scripture you will, and be ever so delighted with it- yet it will leave you as poor, as empty and unchanged as it found you unless it turned you wholly and solely to the Spirit of God, and brought you into full union with and dependence upon Him.”

~William Law

it made me reflect on how do i read the bible. and it’s true dat sometimes i just read and close the book happily cos i’ve read the bible and done what a normal christian would have done. but the real question is- what have God spoke through the chapters dat you’ve read?

a lot of times we just read the bible for the sake of reading and because of dat we can’t get what God is trying to speak to us. i’m gonna start increasing my desire to read the word of God and squeeeeeeeeeeeze everything thing out of every single word in the bible and i won’t let go of God until i get from Him what he wanna say, cos i dun wanna close the book being unchanged.

Argh! results…..

{ March 3, 2009 @ 3:16 am } · { life, Prayer }
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getting back results  on fri 2.30….. sianx… how i wish i dun need to take it back. just take the exam and woosh holidays forever!

i wasn’t scared before this week cos i really trusted God. i noe He will guide and show me the best plans, so i wasn’t worried abt it, no feelings lorx… but… my mum actually talked to me abt wat courses i wanna take wat i wanna do den wat uni i gg…. and i realised how high her expectations for me is. probably my 2 sisiters played a big part in it. i really dun wanna fail her expectations lehx… i can’t bear to see her dissapointed. she wun scold me she wun be angry but i noe she’ll drfinitely be dissapointed.

i’m not worried about me doing badly or what but it’s more of how my family’s gonna take it. God, i really duno how to face my family if i can’t go uni… argh!!! this is irritating!!! i guess i just have to trust God not just in my results but oso my family’s reaction .

surrendering is hard work. God i just wanna surrender my life, my future, everything. even all these emotions. i duno wat’s going to happen but i wana trust you and let you take control.

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