getting back results on fri 2.30….. sianx… how i wish i dun need to take it back. just take the exam and woosh holidays forever!
i wasn’t scared before this week cos i really trusted God. i noe He will guide and show me the best plans, so i wasn’t worried abt it, no feelings lorx… but… my mum actually talked to me abt wat courses i wanna take wat i wanna do den wat uni i gg…. and i realised how high her expectations for me is. probably my 2 sisiters played a big part in it. i really dun wanna fail her expectations lehx… i can’t bear to see her dissapointed. she wun scold me she wun be angry but i noe she’ll drfinitely be dissapointed.
i’m not worried about me doing badly or what but it’s more of how my family’s gonna take it. God, i really duno how to face my family if i can’t go uni… argh!!! this is irritating!!! i guess i just have to trust God not just in my results but oso my family’s reaction .
surrendering is hard work. God i just wanna surrender my life, my future, everything. even all these emotions. i duno wat’s going to happen but i wana trust you and let you take control.
