well didn’t do as well as i expected. and to be truthful, i was dissapointed, especially when i think of how my family would react i seriously wanted to run away. i cried, stopped, think about how to call home and break the news, i cried agian and the cycle repeats… but it’s through this incident that God opened my eyes to more things and i really wanna thank God.
i was so afraid to go home cos i duno how to face my mum. i literally dragged myself home. a 5 mins walk home from mrt and i took like 15 mins. i opened the door and my mum was sitting at the living room. she didn’t even look at me. i nearly burst out crying again. i sat beside her and then it was so awkward dat i had to say something. den i told her” mummy i noe wat are the few courses dat i wanna take le lehx” and den for the next 10 mins it was all me who was talking. talking abt how badly my school did compared to others, how i was feeling right den and den i ran out of things to say. and she said” watever you choose just do it. 行行出状元, who noes you might be one of dem. ” i stunned hahax. den she said” even if you have to go courses which are not popular it’s okay cos next time lesser ppl compete with you also.” the whole entire atmosphere changed. totally changed. i was so so so so happy. if i had gotten good grades i guess all these words will never come out from her mouth. it would just be ” oh okay lorx”. there wouldn’t be comforting words nor approval. it would just be another expected results. so i really wanna thank God for it.
oh another thing is dat if i had good results den i probably duno where to go. i probably will end up in some lab doing research or analysing stuffs which i dun really like. so with my results i’ll choose courses which are more interactive, more relational which is wat i wanted to do!so actually God has decided everything for me!
God,
thanks for the assurance during the pm dat you will hold my hands and receive the results with me.
thanks for really being there when i get my results
thanks for the wonderful cg who came and support, who came and comfort, who came and encourage who were just there. it made a lot of difference.
thanks for helping me get over the down feeling so quickly dat even i’m amazed. tot it would have lasted longer.
thanks for the memorable talk with my mum. short but really really good.
thanks for showing me and guiding me to where you wan me to go.
overall, this is really a emotional day but i’m glad i went through it with God and at the end of the day, i am just left to be amaze at how God plans things so wonderfully. Thanks so much God!=)
